I always chose to play goalkeeper because it meant I didn’t have to physically move very far. Being a goalkeeper meant I didn’t have to make goals. I didn’t have to navigate the field all the way to the other end— which was undeniably way too far in the distance. I didn’t have to strategize and avoid those pesky opponent players who didn’t share my objectives. As goalkeeper I had one focus to adhere to, and adhere to it I did: nothing got past me. That’s it. I would stand sturdy and flail far in order to block anything. It was easy to—
Oh, hold on a second. I just re-read chapter 1 of Ariel Hyatt’s Music Success in 9 Weeks. That’s not the kind of goalmaking and goalkeeping we’re talking about. Ooops. But it kinda still applies, eh. It’s way easier to stand sturdy and focus on one concise purpose at a time rather than having to navigate a shifting and muddy field of everyday life and its players. But I guess if it were too easy, there’d be no sport in it. ;p
On the field in sports I am not such a great goalmaker because I become so intense and spastic that the sense of urgency to pee takes over and I have to leave the field. That was a tough lesson to learn, leaving the field on time. It was a long and wet walk home. The point is, I get way over-stimulated way too easily—and, incidentally, my mouth yells off during the process. I suck at surprise birthday parties, I’ve caught second-degree wrist strain playing a game of Pac Man, and I’ve lost a game of Glow Hockey on a mobile phone…right into a toilet. But I am an awesome goalmaker in the context of this chapter 1 of Music Success kind of way. I am an awesome goalmaker in that I’m a great brainstormer—those dendrites fire like mental! I have big dreams, big intentions, big pants—ahem—which is something I’d like to focus a goal on rectifying.
I’m a great goalkeeper on the field because there is just one focus at a time. In the chapter 1 of Music Success kind of way, I find it a challenge to be a good goalkeeper because I must maintain focus to put things into action while the world around me spins. It’s almost as if there’s a disconnect between Kat the goalmaker and Kat the goalkeeper. Kat the goalmaker is able to create bold and specific outlines while armed with a cup of coffee at the perfect temperature, safe and optimistic in her favourite armchair by the sunlit window. Kat the goalkeeper is expected to execute said outlines even though she may have slept in with a headache from watching Arrested Development till 4:00am, again, even though she feels deflated that Johnny Depp didn’t come to her show, again, even though it’s so damn cold out to trek to another open mic and her pants don’t fit anyway, again.
Exhibit A: The Disconnect, a pictorial example: Here, Goalmaker Kat researches the time and locations for the next Weight Watchers meeting and commits Goalkeeper Kat to going…. while (precisely simultaneously, mind you) Goalkeeper Kat uses the information as a holding deck for the chocolate chips she eats while not even hungry. (Sigh)
Of course I am not a complete doofball. I am proud of many of my accomplishments and I am implementing the 5-succeses a day journal to remind myself. But I think I can be proud of more. I came up with numerous specific goals during this week’s goalmaking exercises, but the 3 umbrella goals that I aim to make part of my life as a whole from here and beyond are:
1) to increase the communication and respect between Goalmaker Kat and Goalkeeper Kat: the former to create amazing and attainable goals while remaining cognizant of the latter’s lust for life and lounging; and the latter to make honest effort to combat challenges and accomplish goals set out, and not to dismiss said goals out of revenge for Goalmaker Kat drinking all the coffee.
2) to engage in social media without becoming spastic like I do with Pac-Man.
3) to stop eating like a maniac and to treat my body well, including exercise and rest.
Note to you: Feel free to hold me accountable. If you see me eating Doritos, please tell me I’m pretty and I’ll get the hint! ;p
Love Kat 😀
PS There are a lot of inspirational bloggers along this Blogging Challenge. These ones really wowed me on inspiration for organizing goals! Look at them go! 😀